Yes it does seem I have fallen off the Blog Wagon...

OK OK here ya go. I know I haven't updated for a while. But really not much happening. Right now (well, for the last few weeks maybe months) all I want to do is sleep. I could fall asleep at any time, any place. The other day/night I slept for probably 18 hours. I could have slept longer. I know that you can over sleep and that makes you more tired but it's not like that. I am just completely drained. It gets to where I cannot even speak. I get horrible headaches too. It hurts to blink sometimes. I feel like I did when I had mono. But my Dr.said that once you have had that you don't get it again. It's really haard to just do the basics you have to do to survive everyday. So, yeah just extremely exhausted, I guess.
So other than that the kids are good. Owen is ready for school to start again. He is bored with summer. Sydney is about the same as Owen without school to look forward to. And Daxx is, well, Daxx. He's into everything and being how I can't even think coherently I have a hard time keeping up.
I found a kitten stuck in our dog kennel and rescued it. I was planning to take it to the shelter but I am completely attached so I think I have another kitty. I am such a sucker for soft fluffy things that I can cuddle.
My Grandma has been in the hospital for a couple weeks and we are just waiting for anything to happen at this point. I don't want to see her suffer anymore. She has been in pain and fighting all sorts of stuff for so many years. It is really hard. I decided that it would be easier to deal with a death than watch anymore suffering. That really sucks too. I went to the hospital tonight and I pretty much said goodbye. It was aweful. That was one of the hardest things ever! I was young enough when Dad passed away that I don't remember much of that part. I think as a child you see the pain and the death just seems like the thing that should happen. I didn't really grieve over the fact that he died but more when I was a teenager and needed a dad. Luckily for me I had Frank. He is a lifesaver. But with grandma, and now as an adult, it is harder to let go. Maybe it's because we grow more selfish as we get older? We think of how much we need them in our lives and all the times we've had. It's definately harder now though. I don't know.
So there's my super uplifting update. It's got to get better, yes?